Monday, April 10, 2006

the powers that be

[yesterday i reverted to my bad habit of emailing. so i'm repenting and putting it here instead.]

dear friends,
in my projecting-instead-of-homeworking yesterday i came across some interesting cosmic connections.
discuss?

who knows the outsiders ? joey, i know you do, it was because of you that i forced my little brother and family to watch the film. (i have yet to read the book, sorry.)
who knows jonatha brooke (and the story)?
who knows robert frost?
ok.
karen ann?

  • karen ann first. i just liked it. it's not really cosmic, but you can still discuss, as long as you discuss with me:
"i always try to not remember rather than forget."

  • and the others:
robert frost -nothing gold can stay-
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

quoted in the outsiders by ponyboy himself:

"...I always remembered it 'cause I never quite knew what he meant by it."

and then explicated by johnny:
"I've been thinking about it, and that poem, that guy that wrote it.
He meant you're gold when you're a kid, like green.
When you're a kid everything's new.
Dawn.

Like the way you dig sunsets, that's gold.
Keep it that way. It's a good way to be.
I want you to ask Dally to look at one.

I don't think he's ever seen a sunset.
There's still lots of good in the world.
Tell Dally, I don't think he knows.
Your buddy, Johnny."

nothing much there until you go home and start listening to

jonatha brooke and the story -made of gold-
I'm going down to the river, I'm gonna look for you
I know you'll be waiting there, 'cause it's a woman's trick
I'm gonna give you what you want, 'cause you've been asking

And I don't even want to know your name
But you'll remember mine
You will remember my name
You will remember my name
You will remember my name, my name

Like the nights in the movies, I'll be waiting

And the days in the heat of her vengeance
You'll know what I've wanted, what she wouldn't admit
I'll show her, I'll show the world, just what they asked for
And they'll remember my name
They will remember my name

They will remember my name
They will remember my name

And what you want most will elude you
What you want most will elude you
'Cause everything, before it changes, seems to be made of gold

Made of gold
Made of gold
Made of gold

In some strange way I'm preparing myself for you
I've been waiting all my life
But I won't give you what you want, I won't fight
I will live, and tell, and you will remember me, you'll remember my name

You will remember my name
You will remember my name
You will remember my name, my name

You'll try to hide me under the mattress, with all your other short sins
But I'll come back, the click in my spine
Will order our lives like a metronome

You can't shut it off
You can't shut it off
You can't shut it off
You can't shut it off

And what you want most will elude you
What you want most will elude you

'Cause everything, before it changes, seems to be made of gold

Made of gold
Made of gold
Made of gold
Made of gold

And like the river, you will remember my song
'Cause love is a heartbeat away from here

if you don't think it's cosmic it's just because you're not as sensitive to these things as i am.

sure, robert frost is famous. sure. but why is it that i only became aware (i had heard of the outsiders but never seen or read it, i'd read some robert frost but not that one that i can recall and i've heard the song tons of times, but never thought about the words.) of all three just yesterday within like a 3 hour span?
why did spike tv just happen to be showing that particular movie when i, for the first time in YEARS, decided to channel surf? why had my brother seen it and was able to recognize and call out the name (saying he didn't want to see it again) before i could pass it by? why do i now live with an english major who could produce the poem on demand? why did i happen to start looking in that part of the collection for songs for the brooks-hicks mix? why did i stop on that song when i knew it wasn't appropriate and i usually wouldn't listen to it?
huh?
yeah. good luck explaining that one without the cosmos.

but why?
the "quick change" lesson? getting old? because i just wrote on my records transfer paper that i'm an english major (and i definitely need to start reading more)? is that it?
what am i supposed to make of this? what are the cosmos trying to tell me? and it better not be that whole "get a business degree and open a shop on the east coast." again. the powers-that-be need to stop using taylor joann as a medium.
(just kidding, jo. you know you're awesome.)

well, let me know.
have a good day.

jo

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